unpleasant day. (Saturday, July 17, 2010 / Saturday, July 17, 2010)
my blog is a place for me to "shout out loud" so if you dont get anything i wrote, i'm sorry! yeahh.this' the first part. next well,
today's NDP NE2. sister's here, and those whom i have given tickets were here too granddaddy,grandmummy,khong,vrinda (: thanks MUMMY! she woke up earlier just to cook fried rice for me, just because i told her the other day " mummyyy! the SFI food they giving us taste bad! ): " hahas! mummy's the best! (: i was still feeling super emotionless! hais, when can this feeling fade and go away! evangeline dont like it! haishaishais! but well, at some part of the way i was pretty high and happy,but is it real, well, i dont know. but i enjoyed hanging out with the teachers and students! the teacher is a uper teacher i think! (Y)(Y)(Y)! this is a super batch of peoples! so today basically besides rarr-rarr-ing the crowd, i spoke less thn 50% of my normal speakings. (N). and i feel uper paiisehs when i was on the bigbig screen. =| hahaha! i thought i was alright aldys,i aldy was. but ohwell, things arent gg so smoothly. aft being alright from like rarr-rarr-ing to rarr-rarr-ing,it seems not alright again. thn aft helping out with the logistics peoples,walking back to nyp's holding area, tried talking to * but ohwell, it's his turn to be "abnormal" . yeah, that actually dampens my feeling, hais, back to the uper (N) feeling. so all the way till back home. the feeling actually (N). the atmosphere actually (N). hais,
the feeling sucks when i asked you what happen and you just ignore. reached home pretty early today, like as compared to usual,it;s early, evangeline was hungry, made somethings for herself to eat. and here she is, ranting out every thing! (N)(N).
on a lighter note, i saw Ms DOREEN ng today,like after so long! (:
evangeline is not happy
evangeline is not sad
evangeline is not angry
evangeline is not pekchek-ed
thn what is evangeline feeling?
... ... ... ...
emotionless.
every single message i received aft i reached home,
i thought it was from you.
but ohwell, non of it was from you,
all was from others.
hais,seriously,
maybe i'm just not good enough
i'm not down not down not down.seriously, but oh well, fyi: i wasnt thinking about it anymore until you mentioned it again.why sorry ? well, it's alrights i suppose, i should have let it bother me so much,Nothing to bother about actually,hais,idk luhs.What i actualy need is simple, just you to talk and chat to me normally, not only asking me if i'm alrights,and asking me to cheer up.evangeline is a girl who need super alot of care and concerns if you haven realise
evangeline is a girl who loves to be pampered alot if you haven realise
evangeline is a girl who love to have her cravings cleared if you haven realised
evangeline is a girl who will have alot of cravings suddenly and wants to clear them, and if you show her that you dont give a damn, she'll be pretty upset although she doesnt sound out, if you haven realise
